I spent the day with my sweet Jess - dropping resumes off at schools, taking a test to become a sub in the schools (man, I need a job), lunch with a friend and then a little "secret mission" that turned into a not-so-little mission that was accomplished.
This secret mission, which I'll discuss fully at a later date, has me pensive tonight. Big changes are ahead for me. This is a not a prophetic statement, or even a particularly remarkable one. I am, after all, unemployed and desiring find a new career path - change is necessary. Jess will soon (how soon?) be married and leaving my home. Sebastian the sheltie isn't long for this life, as I believe his cancer will take him from me soon. All the constants in my life are shifting, changing, disappearing. I believe that even my Constant is changing and shifting in me.
Even to your old age and gray hairs I am he, I am he who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you. Isaiah 46:4
I am ready for some of these changes. I'm ready for a new path, new relationships, a new purpose. I'm not ready for the loses. I'm grieving early and I'm hopeful that the early processing will benefit me in the end. My word for 2012 is hope.
But as for me, I will hope continually, And will praise You yet more and more. Psalm 71:14
Plain and simple HOPE. Peace and contentment in the plan He has for me. Sweet secret missions remind me of my Father.
My soul, wait in silence for God only, For my hope is from Him. Psalm 62:5
He is my everything. My Hope, my Life, my mission.
All to be accomplished in His time.